a pinch of sadness

i am not there yet. or will i ever be in that special place in his heart?

i am really not sure where i am in his life.

but for sure, i cannot be counted as one of his loved ones.

i envy his nieces as he tells them he loves them.

how i wish he tells me he loves me.

i love him. i tell him that -- in my mind, while looking through his brown eyes.

all i can do is hope and pray and love him from a distance.