darn!

or so i thought. i panicked when i learned i can't seem to find my USB charger of my precious Zune. my music player is dead and the charger was no where to be found.

so panicked, i called home and asked them to find it. was not able to watch my fave show, the amazing race, because of it. i can't even brush my teeth!

sister said to check my luggage and i did the 2nd time around. this time i opened it. whew!!! i found it!

panic gone. relief settled in.

charging it now.

-- oOo -- oOo --

i am always, always affectionate, showy and sweet with my significant other. but with siblings, forget about it. we are too proud to say "i love you's" or "take care". worse thing is that I used to be embarrassed to even saying "happy birthday" on their day! that's how stiff we were at each other. kulitan with a select few of my siblings is the utmost way of showing our love to each other.

so reading my sibling's letter of saying they miss me and even ending it with Love, {insert sibling name here}, makes me go -- "boohoohoo", "sniff, sniff, sniff" and "blow, blow, blow your nose". all red-nosed and puffy-eyed.

even for simple video chat over the internet makes me all teary and runny, i had to distance my face from the webcam far enough for sibling not to notice. maybe because of the thousands of miles separating ourselves causes the extra emotions to flow out of me. the topic -- sibling telling not to be shy and that since OZ people don't know you, you can be who you want to be!

i long for loved ones to be around me. i hate separation. if only we could all be together, the 6 of us in one house -- hmmm, not a good idea. or at least we live near each other would be a good thing. maybe not. but the fact of the matter is, i miss family. i miss love. i miss the company. i miss the sense of security - where you know that someone always has your back.

siguro mababaw din ang luha ko.